one year ago

Today, marks our one year anniversary of when we started this journey to our fifth child.

***A year ago...***

an application was placed in the mail, that day changed the rest of my life.

I did not know her face, but today I do.

I did not know God would teach me the depth of His love but today I see it so clearly

I wouldn't have thought my daughter would be deaf, but today I wouldn't want her any other way.

I feared we would not have the money for the expenses, but today we have paid every penny.

I did not know I would be flying around the world to get our daughter soon but today I sit anxiously waiting for it to happen.

I did not know how much my life would change, but today I am happier than ever.

I did not know how much I could love a child that did not grow under my heart, but today I am so in love, my heart aches for her.

I did not know her name would be Lennox, but today I can't decide if we call her Lenni, Nox, Yujina, or just Lennox.

I did not know the friendships I would make, but today I can't see my life without them.

I did not know my Studly would be so in love with his little girl, but today I see it when I catch him gleaming at her pictures.

I did not know I would be thinking about a woman who selfishly gave my child life, but today I pray for her.

I did not know I would find the cutest boots from H&M for three dollars, but today I can't wait to put her feet in them.

I did not know I would influence someone else to take this leap of faith, but today I praise God for letting me be His vessel for His lost children.

***A year ago....today***